“My mother died when she was 60. 60 is too young to die”

Billie Lourd shared an emotional message on what would have been Carrie Fisher’s birthday.

The Scream Queens The actor paid tribute to his late mother by sharing his grieving process.

“Today would have been my mom’s 68. Birthdays for dead people are weird to say the least,” Lourd shared on Instagram. “On my mother’s birthday every year, I try to celebrate her as much as possible, but today I really want to celebrate it with her. Some years my pain makes me feel the warmth of his love, some years it makes me angry, some years I feel numb but today when I woke up I just felt sad. I didn’t want to celebrate, I just wanted my mother.”

Lourd, who appeared with her mother in 2017 Star Wars: The Last Jedishe said her sadness “took over her body” and she went to Google to look up a “dead middle-aged woman”. The actress said the results showed that the average age of death for a woman is 80.2 years.

“My mother died when I was 60,” he added. “60 is too young to die.”

He continued: “Then I googled drug overdose deaths (another fun google in the morning!!!) and there are over 100k a year.”

Lourd spoke of helping her mother “get sober, but unfortunately my mother could not escape her addiction. But as long as she lived, she always shared the ups and downs of that struggle with others with the ‘hope it would help them escape their own addiction’.

“As an addict, being open about the struggle is the only way to overcome it. And the same goes for those affected by that struggle,” Lourd said. “Sending my love to anyone who has lost someone to drug addiction. You are not alone.”